Cure through a sport

I'm actually not very satisfied with this video;I wish the song was much longer so I could go more in depth about why I love cross country so much. If it weren't for me forcing myself to go to practice every single day after school,I would be sitting in my room,not a crumb in my stomach,staring aimlessly at thinspiration and getting no where with my life.The first two weeks have been extremely hard for me mentally and physically. I was never used to eating as much as I try to eat now..ever.If I don't eat and drink a lot of water,I regret it at practice when we go on our many mile runs.At this point,I really haven't gotten obsessive about what I'm eating,I'm just trying to get in whatever I can so I don't fall behind the group. This was probably the biggest step I've taken to getting to recovery.I've gotten a lot less self concious, and I can even wear SPANDEX WITH THE GROUP WHILE RUNNING...which I've never even dared to do.ever.I feel so much better with my moods,and thoughts,and my attitude towards food..After practice,I usually get grouchy because I WANT dinner so badly lol. But even though things are getting much better,I still have a long way to go..and my obsession hasn't stopped,especially with being around some of the girls on the team who are in amazingly good shape,but I know after a few months I'll be on my way to looking like them. :)

YouTube | August 30, 2008